My son is asleep and I’m sitting at the computer trying to think of ways to make money to carry us through life… It all seems so hard right now, but I think everything… well I hope everything will work out in the end. I never thought I’d be a single mother, but life always has a way of working out the way it’s supposed to rather than the way you had planned or imagined. For others… Life seems to work out just the way they always thought it would and I wish those who find that happiness all the best. For me… I’m still trying to find my happiness and fall into my new routine as a mother who just happens to be single. I wasn’t always single, but for the purpose of this blog post I will just say I’ve been single for quite some time. I was with the father of my son for a few years, but really for the last few years we have not been in a real relationship as we’ve merely just been existing.
I finally realized that it was never going to work out between us and here I sit… in the dark, listening to Bones on Netflix while trying to figure out what I’m going to do to take care of my son and support the two of us in a ridiculously expensive part of California. I’m also praying that my anonymity is still in effect as I deleted my facebook link to this page as honestly this site was started more for my own therapy than to share with close friends and family. Isn’t that wonderful… You all who are reading this are my therapy so thank you.
I had hoped that this blog would miraculously take off like the millions of other sites I see hosted on Ellen and I’d get tons of sponsors and people would want to help me expand and grow positivecircle into something that would skyrocket into success therefore allowing me the freedom to never have to work a 9-5 again. I’d be able to stay home with my son and afford him every opportunity in life that I never had. Ahhh a dreamer!
Alas, blogs take work and daily attention and I’m a working single mother who sucks at sticking to anything these days other than taking a ridiculous amount of photos of her son and posting them on instagram… Yea, I’m one of those moms. But I do think that there is hope and I’m not destitute as I have a steady income (for now) and my son is happy… Goodness he’s a happy little man! I get such joy just watching him grow and discover new things and I trip out to think I MADE THIS! He’s so awesome this little buddy of mine! Oh man I can’t wait to share the daily shenanigans we have. It’s not all doom and gloom, things are going to be just fine and Austen and I will too.
